My joy is an illusion
That only I can see through
But my illusion is slowly fading
I don't know what to do
It has been there so long
When it disappears
It will bring back sorrow
And all of my fears
My joy is an illusion
I fear when it is gone
My friends will see the true me
And they to will leave
For I've never shown the real me
What they have seen is a hoax
A spectacle of hope and caring
When I am but a ghost
Of what I used to be
Of what I wish I am
My joy is not an illusion
I am
I don't know why
I don't understand why since I was 10 I have wondered "would this kill me if a ate it " or "what is the least painful way to die" . I have a great life , everyone tells me that ,yet for some reason I barley ever feel that way . I.am only happy when holding on to someone . and when I'm teased or told I did something wrong or left alone I just want to die . I'm broken and that's a fact I trust to easily and I always end up more broken . So please don't cry or feel bad for me , I don't want your pity, well, I guess deep down I might because I am writing this wow I guess I'm an attention hog I just want you to know that his is
My joy is an illusion
That only I can see through
But my illusion is slowly fading
I don't know what to do
It has been there so long
When it disappears
It will bring back sorrow
And all of my fears
My joy is an illusion
I fear when it is gone
My friends will see the true me
And they to will leave
For I've never shown the real me
What they have seen is a hoax
A spectacle of hope and caring
When I am but a ghost
Of what I used to be
Of what I wish I am
My joy is not an illusion
I am
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1. Please credit me for the design of the adopt.
2. If you submit to toyhouse then credit my account on there. It's .luvdarats
3. Don't sell the adopts. You can trade or gift them, just let me know who the new owner is.
4. Please don't steal! I put time and effort into making these for people so please don't be an asshole. You can make your own on Gaiaonline.
5. You have a month to complete your end of the deal. I will give extended time if you need it as long as you have a reason other than you forgot / didn't feel like it.
6. If something happens and you can't complete your end of the deal, then let